Depression: FYI

If you watched episode 9 of REC the anime, you would notice that Matsumaru Fumihiko, the male protagonist, acted like a jerk at the beginning of the episode despite not wanting to. Well, that is a realistic depiction. I suffer from clinical depression and I can tell you that even if the sun is shining and everything is alright, you will be bad tempered if you're feeling depressed.

There are days you will want to kill yourself or will pray for death just to be free from this weight. Maybe cultural conditioning also has some bearing on how a person will act. Maybe some people will snap earlier than others due to circumstances.

Depression is a little like flu: there is very little you can do until it has run its course. Sometimes, some cures are effective but like flu, the cures for depression help the symptoms rather than the cause. But let me tell you, every bit of cure that helps, works.

Oftentimes, if you want to help a depressed friend, you are on your own. Your depressed friend will not look for help, he/she will just curl into his/her own little ball of pain instead of look for help. When you're depressed, you don't feel worthy of help. Sometimes, you feel your troubles are too small to even merit asking for help. Often people on the outside don't even notice what has happened, depression cannot be diagnosed as easily as the flu.

In the meantime, we live in our little hell on earth until the depression-flu runs its course. Or we die of it.