Black-Winged Bird

When I think of Heaven,
deliver me in a black-winged bird ....

-Lyrics from Rain King by Counting Crows
from their album August and Everything After

There are days and there are days.

I'm getting more and more tired, fatigued, every day. I've become more Counting Crows mood these few days. That, despite the fact that I've been listening to Ghost in the Shell 2nd Gig's OST. I've been trying to avoid that place for a while.

Asleep in perfect blue buildings,
Beside the green apple sea
Gonna get me a little oblivion, baby
Try to keep myself away from me (myself and) me.

-Lyrics from Perfect Blue Buildings by Counting Crows
from their album August and Everything After

Black is the color of my soul. Crows and ravens fly in the sky of my mind. The only white is my padded cell and the jacket wrapped around me. There are other colors but they come and go. Only red, blood red splattered all over the walls, persist longest.

Save your tears,
for the day,
when our pain is far behind.
On your feet,
come with me,
we are soldiers stand or die.

-Lyrics from Rise by Yoko Kanno
from the OST of Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd Gig

I have no idea, no knowledge of what's going on. Only that I'm a soldier far from home, a pilgrim on a sojourn.