Loneliness

Loneliness

Loneliness is a condition of relationships. A person can be lonely even in a crowd of friends yet feel the opposite in a crowd of strangers. It had always been that way for me. I never felt comfortable among my IRL friends yet I find the company of people I meet online in the world of Ragnarok Online or World of Warcraft relaxing. Maybe because of its nature, online acquaintances are never a threat to my well-being as IRL friends are. IRL friends know the outside you, where you come from, who you're related to and how much you are worth. OL friends know the virtual you, what your attitudes are towards certain things, where you like to virtually hang-out and how much patience you have with certain things.

Sometimes you wish for a friend or group of friends that can transcend that barrier between IRL and OL and see the true you.

Sometimes you wish that somehow, someway, your IRL existence would be more satisfying or your OL existence wouldn't be so fleeting.

Sometimes loneliness is the only thing you have to define your individuality. To lose that loneliness does not make you happy, it only makes you numb and dumb. To lose that loneliness, you also lose that individuality.

At best, the only solution to loneliness is to connect in small parts, to intersect in certain areas. The loneliness remains but we also remain to be more than lonely. We become people holding cellphones.