Maybe I'll Win, Save By Zero

Fude Pen Boru Pen

ふでペン　FU　FU
ふるえる　FU FU
はじめてキミへの　GREETING　CARD
ときめき　PASSION
あふれて　ACTION
はみだしちゃうかもね

キミの笑顔想像して
いいとこ見せたくなるよ
情熱をにぎりしめ
振り向かせなきゃ！

愛をこめて　スラスラとね　さあ書き出そう
受け取ったキミに　しあわせが　つながるように
夢を見せて　クルクルとね　字が舞い躍る
がんばれふでペン　ここまできたから
かなり本気よ☆

ふでペン　FU FU
無理かも　FU FU
くじけそうになるけれど
手書きが　MISSION
熱いわ　TENSION
印刷じゃつまらない

ハネるとこトメるとこ
ドキドキまるで恋だね
これからもヨロシクね
一言そえて

はしゃぐ文字は　ピカピカにね　ほら磨きかけ
まっすぐキミの　ココロまで　届けばいいな
走る軌跡　キラキラだね　そう乾くまで
待っててふでペン　ごめんねボールペンは
おやすみしてて
かなり本気よ☆

キミの笑顔想像して
いいとこ見せたくなるよ
情熱をにぎりしめ
振り向かせなきゃ！

愛をこめて　スラスラとね　さあ書き出そう
受け取ったキミに　しあわせが　つながるように
夢を見せて　クルクルとね　字が舞い躍る
がんばれふでペン　ここまできたから
かなり本気よ☆

Calligraphy Pen FU FU
Shivering FU FU
My first greeting card to you
Throbbing Passion
Overflowing Action
Maybe it’s totally forced

Imagining your smile
I want to show you my good points
Tightly grasping on to my enthusiasm
I’ll make you turn your head around!

Put in your love smoothly, okay? Well, let’s start writing!
I wish this happiness could be intertwined with you who I accepted
Show me a spinning dream, okay? The letters are dancing
Do your best Calligraphy Pen; You’ve come this far
I’m really serious!

Calligraphy Pen FU FU
Maybe it’s impossible FU FU
You might get broken but
Handwriting is your mission
It’s really hot; this tension
Printing is just boring

Touching and stopping
This throbbing is really love, right?
From here on out I’m still counting on you, okay?
Decorate every single word!

The frolicking letters are sparkling! Look, it’s so polished
If only I could reach straight towards your heart
The flowing loci are glittering! Until it dries,
Wait a second Calligraphy Pen; Sorry Ballpen
Have a good night
I’m really serious!

Imagining your smile
I want to show you my good points
Tightly grasping on to my enthusiasm
I’ll make you turn your head around!

Put in your love smoothly, okay? Well, let’s start writing!
I wish this happiness could be intertwined with you who I accepted
Show me a spinning dream, okay? The letters are dancing
Do your best Calligraphy Pen; You’ve come this far
I’m really serious!

Thanks to www.hona-ch.com for the english translation and for the kanji transliteration and LemonTea62@YoutTube for the mix and AMV!
http://honya-ch.com/2009/07/21/lyrics-k-on-insert-song-fudepen-ballpen/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5hhjBISIhc&feature=related

Gomen ne, Watashi by Nanba Shiho

koori hajiitara chiisa na aozora ni
fukigen na kao nozokikonda no
wanagara HATTO shite shisen wo sorashita
nee kimi wa ima doushiteru no?

mada mani au? sore tomo osoi?
HONTO wa mada kimagure nanka ja nai

"Gomen ne" tte itsukara konna ni muzukashii kotoba ni nacchatan darou
GURASU no manatsu ga toketeku

"Gomen ne" itsukara konna ni tomadou futari ni nacchatan darou
iitai no ni ienai
itsudemo kimi to itai no ni

gomen ne, watashi.

chikazuku hodo ni hanareteyuku mitai
tameiki ga sotto SODA ni kieteku
yakusoku wa itsumo watashi wo karakatte
HAATO no naka wo nuritsubusu yo

mada mani au? sore tomo osoi?
HONTO wa mada tsuyoki na furi wo shiteru

"Gomen ne" tte itsukara konna ni muzukashii kotoba ni nacchatan darou
GURASU no manatsu ga yonderu

"Gomen ne" itsukara konna ni tomadou futari ni nacchatan darou
iitai no ni ienai
itsudemo warawasetai no ni

gomen ne, watashi.

sunahama ni nokoru
ashiato tachi tadotte yuku
kinou no watashi ni mou ichido
aetara kitto kou iu wa

"Hakane"

"Gomen ne" tte itsukara konna ni muzukashii kotoba ni nacchatan darou
GURASU no manatsu tokenai de...

"Gomen ne" kimi ga warautabi sekai wa umare kawarundarou
GURASU no manatsu nomihoseba

"Gomen ne" doushite konna ni muzukashii kotoba ni nacchatan darou
iitai no ni ienai
nee kimi wo warawasetai no ni
mattete warawasete miseru

gomen ne, watashi.
gomen ne, watashi.

Also sprach Zarathustra: Einleitung

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Also_sprach_Zarathustra_%28Richard_Strauss%29

Spring

Mine & Chiaki - Spring from Kathryn on Vimeo.

After the harsh winter passes, a warm spring follows. I wonder when it will also come to me.

Rhapsody in Blue: Nodame Cantabile version

Secrets (theholders.org version)

The Holder of Secrets is dead.

It's no secret that he died, for at the moment of his death, no more secrets can be kept. The knowledge enters everybody's mind and floats among the debris of their life experiences. The reason for his death is no secret either, for with the knowledge of his passing comes the knowledge of its cause: the weight of carrying all the secrets in the universe has crushed the Holder's mind. Yes, even Holders can have their minds destroyed. As if the Object is paying its last respects to its Holder, the name of Father Brian O'Shea drops and ripples in the babbling din of thoughts and memories that can no longer be kept out.

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I find myself in a familiar churchyard looking at the weathered edifice of a tiny cathedral. I remember the many times I entered the church, seeking solace, attending mass, witnessing a baptism or marriage, or paying my last respects to the departed. I remember often seeing Father O'Shea enter the confessional to assume his post. In hindsight, a priest receiving confessions being the Holder of Secrets is rather fitting.

In my mind, as well as in the communal mind that the death of the Holder created, I start to realize and understand things that were open secrets, things that everybody knew but never acknowledged. Things like why bread was sold at half price at closing time (Fresh Baked? Think again.) or what certain nursery rhymes really meant (Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall...).

I start walking towards the forest at the edge of town.

Other secrets start skittering in. Personal secrets, public affairs, and even the secrets of things that have no life in itself, like governments and institutions...

Mr. Smith had an affair with Ms. Johnson. My mind is suddenly flooded with the memories of their trysts and alibis.

My body aches and my soul is weighed down under the pain of the beatings and the despair Mrs. Chan carried as a battered wife.

The creature sighting at the lake was a hoax; its photographs were fabricated. My/his heart beats with elation as I/he realize the success of my/his actions.

Beep, beep, beep, beep .... said the machine. The infamous dictator of that Latin-American country has been braindead for months, yet the machine keeps the body alive. Beep, beep, beep, beep ....

In the dying bank where I keep my money, many hands are feverishly feeding the shredder, trying to wash themselves of guilt in this modern Pilate's basin. Shredded paper, shredded lives, pointing the accusing finger even in its death throes.

As I enter the forest, the babble of secrets begins unraveling the weaker minds, yet strangely leaving the minds of the insane untouched. I start to lose my own sense of identity as I lose track of which secrets are my own and which belong to someone else.

I become rooted in the middle of the forest as the final, most deeply hidden secrets start to emerge, the secrets everybody hides from their own selves:

Rosalinda, the socialite and life of the party, does not want to be left alone to face her own demons. They torment her with her fading beauty, with the futility of her wealth, with her constant loneliness.

In his dreams, a little boy is always lost, trying to find his way. In his mind, a giant is walking the earth, crushing everything in its path. In truth, George, the black sheep, wants his absent father to take notice of him as he looks for the source of his missing comfort, wanting to destroy that source of unending pain.

Then I turn and look at myself.

And realize.

The awful truth.

The darkest secret I've kept from myself: I've been the Holder of Secrets' Object all along. I look deep into my "memories" and realize they were never my own but borrowed and pasted together from the secrets of those who strayed too close. I myself have nothing. I am tabula rasa.

A black cloud swirls in my vision, accompanied by the sound of a million flapping wings. Secrets, like crows, are coming home to roost. I raise my arms to ward them off, but my arms freeze as bark and leaves start growing on them.

In desperation, or perhaps defiance of my fate, I shout, "Where do secrets draw their power?"

Instead of echoing back my words, my voice responds, "From fear do secrets draw their power."

Fear sprouts with every leaf: fear of losing this short life of borrowed memories and thoughts, fear of the void, the nothingness beyond death or rebirth, in truth, back into an Object of no memories, no identity, no self.

As the bark closes over my mouth, as darkness and nothingness close over my eyes, I scream out one last time, "Where does fear draw its power?"

My own voice replies, before silence reclaims its place, "From secrets does fear draws its power."

Secrets at theholders.org

Blue Sky, True Sky

Song: Blue Sky, True Sky
Artist: Yuuki Aira
Album: Blue Sky, True Sky
Other: Ending song for the anime Tears to Tiara

Fairy tale was gone omoide ga hashiru
furenaide tada miokureba
I said regret mind natsukashisa ni oborete
tokeaeba ii yo ne tabun ii yo ne
kanashii Liar

Fairy tale was gone, my memories run away,
I won’t touch them…I’ll just see them off…
I said regret mind, I drown in my nostalgia…
It they melt it’ll be fine…it’ll probably be fine…
Such a sorrowful liar…

tobazu no tori ga jiyuu wo utau hi ni
ima ha inai kimi no sugata
sagashi ni yuku tooi ashita he
Jump to your heart

On the day a flightless bird sings for freedom…
Let’s go look for your figure
that isn’t here right now, let’s search until the distant future.
Jump to your heart

toki no naka de oikakeru kagayakeru yume ha
mirai doshi ga tsunagaru koto de
tashika ni naru kara
takaku soshite tsuyoku maiagaru kokoro
toki ga matteru yo sakenderu yo
hayaku aitai to
Blue Sky, True Sky
namida ha iranai Blue Sky

The glittering dream I chase within this time is
a future where both you and I are together,
I’m sure it’ll come true.
My heart dances proudly and strongly,
time is waiting for us, it’s calling for us,
“I want to see you now”
Blue Sky, True Sky
Blue Sky that has no need for for tears.

Silent days had you ushinaeba wakaru
maniatte mada ai ga aru
I can’t call your name todakanai to nageita
akirameru yori mo sora no tatakasa
kanjite Flier

Silent days had you, if you lose someone you’ll understand.
In time, there will still be love.
I can’t call your name, “It won’t reach you” I grieved…
Rather than giving up…I’ll feel the
flier of the sky’s height.

tsubasa ha kienai me wo tojitegoran yo
senaka atsuku kimi no moto he
michikareta youna kimochi de
Take off! Myself

Our wings haven’t disappeared, try closing your eyes,
With the hot feelings that seem
to lead me towards you, I
Take off! Myself

motomerareta sonzai ha hanareba nare demo
jiryoku matteru hikiyoseta no ha
sadame de aru kara
ookiku motto ookiku hirogeta tsubasa ni ha
motomotemitai yo tsukamaraetai yo
subete dakishimete
Birds eye, Birds eye…Hi Sky!

The person I search for, even if I’m separated from him,
the awaiting magnetic fore that pulls me in is
destiny!
The wings I spread more and more
try to look for you, they want to catch you and
embrace everything.
Birds eye, birds eye…Hi sky!

True Sky!

toki no naka de oikakeru kagayakeru yume ha
mirai doshi ga tsunagaru koto de
tashika ni naru kara
takaku soshite tsuyoku maiagaru kokoro
toki ga matteru yo sakenderu yo
hayaku aitai to
Blue sky, True sky, Blue Sky, True sky
namida ha iranai Blue sky

The glittering dream I chase withing this time is
a future where both you and I are together,
I’m sure it’ll come true.
My heart dances proudly and strongly,
time is waiting for us, it’s calling for us,
“I want to see you now”
Blue Sky, True Sky
Blue Sky that has no need for for tears.




Translation from/by Deciphered Melodies
Youtube video by Tears to Tiara Animax and Wolfrozern

Place Holder: She's a babe!!

A Joyful Wedding

Here Without You

A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Here Without You by Three Doors Down
CGI/Video from World of Warcraft
A Machinima by Dimoroc
Found in Youtube

My Key?

Thriller in World of Warcraft: a tribute

Rest in peace Michael Jackson.

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Note: I did not make this video nor do I claim its content as my own. I found it in YouTube.

Thriller by Michael Jackson
AMV by Darkmole
World of Warcraft by Blizzard

I Can Wait Forever

Official LaMB Theme Song - Simple Plan (I Can Wait Forever) @ Yahoo! Video

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie
But every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
There's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it
I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait (I can wait)
I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...

I Can Wait Forever by Simple Plan
Video from Animax

Estranged

 


When you're talkin' to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
ONE, TWO

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An' what more could you ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
And you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die

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Estranged by Guns and Roses

Undercity Freaks Me Out

It's been over a month of traveling over the beginner to mid-level areas of the World of Warcraft and the experience is wonderful. This World is a distillation of many things that I see in the real world or through my boob-tube window of the real world (television). In it, I see the true Native American culture that I've read about in many books and on National Geographic and Discovery Channel. Now I see it as a native of that culture, sort of.

That makes it so disconcerting to see the homebase of the Forsaken, an ally of the Tauren, albeit loosely, through the eyes of a Tauren. That part of the World is dreary, full of abandoned or worse haunted buildings and ruins. The color scheme is full of dark tones: deep purple, dark blue, dark green and dark brown, all colors are almost black. Since I play only at night, the night colorings make the area depressing at best, sinister at worse. And that is just the surrounding forest of Silverpine and Tirisfal Glades.

Undercity is a stage-set that is a mix of many horror film cliches placed into one large city. Pools of green slime (ectoplasm?) flow throughout the city. There are a few Frankenstein laboratories somewhere there along with requisite non-FDA approved human testing. The sound of caged women sobbing is particularly disturbing to me.

And then there are the NPCs (non-player characters). Since the Forsaken are undead, most of the NPCs in Undercity are undead. In World of Warcraft, there are the enemy of all living things undead and there are the enemy of all living things except for their Horde allies undead. From the way they talk, you sometimes wonder if the Forsaken NPCs have a hidden plan to feast on your living brains.

If you like horror and/or suspense movies, television shows, books and graphic novels, Undercity and its surroundings is for you. Neither Dracula nor the lords of Ravenloft would be out of place there. Neither will Fox Mulder and Dana Sculley. Shades of House of the Dead and Silent Hill and Resident Evil and all the zombie horror movies are all there.

After the sun-baked desert of the Barrens, I was hoping to find a home in a cool forested zone minus the Night Elves of Ashenvale. Too bad Tirisfal Glades and Silverpine cannot be that home. I recommend it for its horrific beauty and atmosphere to all to come and visit. And if you are the type who likes that kind of atmosphere, to stay.

On the Outside

I stood close enough to hear you say
"Do as the beautiful ones do"
I tore up my picture from its frame
I just wanted to be one of you


I'm standing on the outside, lookin'
Funny how you see the truth
But the feeling does come back to you


She's crazy as anyone can be
That's what they say, they say of me
Wanting love can make one do
It isn't my fault, heredity


I'm standing on the outside, lookin' lookin'
State of grace, state of sin
I'm standing on the outside, lookin' lookin'
Cannot feel a single thing
But the feeling does come back again


This morning feels like yesterday
Yesterday follows me around
Where do you go when no one cares?
Six feet under, underground


I'm standing on the outside, lookin' lookin'
State of grace, state of sin
I'm standing on the outside, lookin' lookin'
Cannot feel a single thing
But the feeling will come back again
Again



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On the Outside by Sheryl Crow

Love Forever

Japanese Title: 永遠に(愛?)...Love Forever
Chinese Title: 候永恆的愛
Composer/Arranger: 大久保薫 (Okubo Kaoru)
Lyrics: 貞方祥 (Sadakata Show)
Vocals:
土屋亜有子 (Tsuchiya Ayuko)
大久保薫 (Okubo Kaoru)
Flash Movie by ZeldaFans & Wymen
Ragnarok Online property of Gravity Co., Ltd.



SAYONARA to tsubuyaite
Murmuring "goodbye"
naita kimi ni sei wo muke aita
I turn to face your crying face
kanarazu kaeru kara to
I'll definitely return
aoi sora ni yakusoku
To meet with the blue sky

sora ni fukanda kumo nara
If I were a cloud floating in the sky
anata ni mo todoku no
I would reach for you
kimi ni tsutaetai kara
I want to show you
kono sora no ano kumo wo
In this sky That cloud,
oikakete
chase it

haruka kanata anata wo omoi
Faraway yonder I think of you
mirai no shiawase wo yumemiteru
I dream of the future's happiness
dakara itsumo wasuretakunai
Therefore I can never forget
futari no ai to futari no yume
Our love and dreams
Love Forever
Love Forever

ohayou to sasayaite
Whispering "Good morning"
asa no kimi de mezameta ano koro
When you wake up in the morning
kanarazu matteite to
I'll definitely wait
aoi sora yo tsutaete
It's the blue sky I'm showing you

sora ni habataku tori nara
If I were a bird in the sky
anata e to toberu no
I would fly to you
kimi ni todoketai kara
Because I want to reach for you
kono sora no ano kumo wo
In this sky that cloud,
oikoshite
Overtake it

haruka kanata anata wo omoi
Faraway yonder I think of you
futatabi aeru hi wo shinjiteru
I believe in the day we will meet
dakara itsuka sono hi no tame ni
Therefore for the sake of this day
futari no ai to futari no yume
Our love and dreams
Love Forever
Love Forever

haruka kanata anata wo omoi
Faraway yonder I think of you
mirai no shiawase wo yumemiteru
I dream of the future's happiness
dakara itsumo wasuretakunai
Therefore I can never forget
futari no ai to futari no yume
Our love and dreams
Love Forever
Love Forever



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The King is dead: Postscript

From the Philippine Star, December 16, 2004

EDITORIAL – Decency
The Philippine Star 12/16/2004

In the movies he consistently played the hero, and the image stuck. Fernando Poe Jr., "Da King" of Philippine movies, is getting a hero’s farewell from the millions who idolized him. There was more to Poe, however, than a mere screen image. Those who have known him swear by the genuine decency of the man. Off-screen, Ronald Allan Kelley Poe was a true hero to many, friend and stranger alike. Colleagues in the movies speak of his readiness to help, of his philanthropy where the main requirement was that he remained anonymous. He elicited fierce loyalty from those whose lives he had touched. While beloved of the masses, Poe failed to translate that affection into votes – although he was still contesting the election results at the time of his death. It is said that he died of heartbreak due to his ill-fated venture into politics, but the nation will ne-ver know. Always intensely private, Poe kept to himself throughout his campaign. The privacy enhanced his myth in the silver screen, but it was disastrous for a politician. In the aftermath of the elections he withdrew even further into himself. If he harbored ill feelings toward anyone, the public will never know. Poe did not speak ill of either friend or foe; the rare times that he criticized his main rival for the presidential race, it came off with great reluctance. By many accounts Poe had tried to inject something new in Philippine politics. It was said that if he ever won, he wanted to be beholden to as few individuals or interest groups as possible, so he could go-vern unencumbered by political debts. There were reports that he initially preferred to spend his own money for his campaign, turning down many proffered donations. When an entrenched system of patronage politics proved too much for him, Poe bowed out of the political limelight with grace. Always the decent gentleman, he refused to indulge those agitating him to lead street protests, preferring to take his case to the courts. He had fought the good fight and that was enough.

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This is the editorial from the Philippine Star (www.philstar.com), a Philippine newspaper, dated December 16, 2004